The word for 2012 in my family was RESTORE. It is one of my favorite promises…along with God’s grace, mercy, and total unconditional love! Restoration applies to our family in so many ways over the past year. The incredible beauty of brokenness restored in people always leaves me mouth wide, and on my face every single time! Definitely one of my favorite thing to see ever! Perfect restoration. Seeing Him do it over and over again in each new life, making a new creation in Him. Slowly restoring one broken mess after another….continually raining down new mercies every morning….offering another chance to heal our broken places….there is nothing more beautiful!

There are many ways He has brought restoration to my family….In the most broken years, as we stood by a tiny casket being lowered into the cold, hard earth….grasping to believe and wondering…”Where are you in this, God?”

When we struggled through loneliness in our marriage to communicate and trust each other through this ugly monster called Grief…

Nights I spent questioning who God really was, His sovereignty and His love. I questioned there had to be more than I was experiencing as a believer.

SO, I clung to His promise, sometimes kicking and screaming, but none the less, the beautiful promise of RESTORATION. …the promise that our God sees us, knows us and He will restore….

“So I will restore to you the years that the swarming locusts have eaten, the crawling locust, the consuming locust, and the chewing locust, my great army which I sent among you” Joel 2:25

And He did…and still is…restoring us day by day…

In the arms of Jesus, Mills is completely and gloriously restored.

Restoring our marriage to a whole new deeper level. In the busyness of life, making time to be alone together and trust and pursue each others hearts. Redeeming resentment and bitterness. Giving each other a greater understanding of our hurts, weaknesses and most of all, the depths of our hearts.

Restoring my complete trust in Him. God’s presence in my life is  constant reminder that He is Good and He can be Trusted. Teaching me about being an authentic believer and placing incredible people in my life over 2012 to encourage and speak life and God’s promise into my heart.

Oh…but He is so not finished…He is constantly working to restore the broken places in the quiet depths of our heart we arent even aware exist! Places hidden even to ourselves. Places He will restore if we allow Him to. I know that even the miraculous restoration I have experienced and witnessed in the lives of others, that He has just begun His work in me. The depths of His love, His plan and His promises for my life….it has only just begun…

“He restores my soul; He leads me to the path of His righteousness for His names sake” Psalm 23:3

So…Here is to 2013…and I am sensing the word for 2013 for our family just may be…Change…..Eeeek!!:-)


And because I dont feel right about doing a blog post without pictures…Here are some of my favorites from 2012…










More than two thousand years ago, the world ached for salvation, swelled with yearning for deliverance, redemption, restoration…for a Savior to rescue from sin and death. And He came…a baby King, born in a lowly stable on a quiet night to a peasant girl and her betrothed…a carpenter. He was in the still, small voice when He whispered past Elijah. And He was in the quiet stable birth when He came to rescue us and sent His angels to tell the shepherds the good news.

His name is Jesus…and He came for me.

His name is Jesus…and He came for you.

And now thousands of years later, we are far from that night in the stable, and yet we still  find ourselves yearning for that inner HOPE that only He can fill. We live in a world of hopelessness. In the midst of a country filled with school shooters, sexual predators, and people immuned to hearing about Jesus. A country full of broken people who come from broken stories and desperately need Jesus to fill our hearts with peace and HOPE. And in that hope lies the answer to the question we all long to know. That no matter what happens in this crazy life, and no matter how bad we have messed up, He came for us.

And Because He came…there is hope for tomorrow and a promise of a joyful, forever reunion. He will wipe away all of the tears and wash away the loss and regret. He will cleanse and forgive and clothe us in robes of white. The empty arms will be filled. The hungry hearts will be fed. Brokenness will be restored. Mourning will be turned to dancing. And sin and death will be no more. Because He came…He will carry us through this life. And because He came…He will come again…in all His glory…to take us home.

So as I tucked my sleepy headed boys into bed last night, they could barely contain their excitement. I was reminded how precious this time is and how much I love being their mommy. May you take this time with your family to celebrate His birth and also what His birth means in your own life every day! We are so blessed and grateful that He came to make ALL things new!!

Merry Christmas!!


Christmas Morning 2012

The past few months have been full of a lot of fun around here! From Halloween to Thanksgiving and everything in between…it doesn’t seemed like we have stopped at all! As we have quickly entered the Christmas Season….it seems one word keeps coming in my mind….Gratefulness. I have been overwhelmed with gratitude for so many reasons over the past few months. Just seeing God’s work in my life reminds me of His promise, and it is such a beautiful thing for me to acknowledge. As I look over the past few years and where He has brought me…it makes me so thankful. I love that He continues to reveal things to me in His timing. It seems like I have had an awful lot of “A Ha” Moments lately. Some of them pretty painful, but never the less moving me in the direction of His heart. I think about the amazing people He has placed in my life to mentor me and speak truth and life into me. Teaching me how to live a Christ filled life that is full and alive and not bound by the rules and expectations we put on ourselves. Because in Christ there is freedom and hope….not condemnation and shame. Its one thing to know these things, we all do, but the beauty comes from truly grasping this and living a life transformed. I am thankful this season that God is control of my life and that He is showing me daily the true peace and joy that are available to me as His daughter….Merry Christmas!

Tate as a fireman and Jon Walt as Batman for Halloween!

Jon Walt and his best buddy and partner in crime…Wells

The Trick or Treating Hayride

My sweet husband pulled the hayride with a load of kiddos! It was a fun Halloween

Fun times Trick or Treating…


Tate and his sweet friend James

One of our favorite stops….All of the kids with their sweet principal at their school.

My best friend, Andrea and my husband photo bombing our picture!

Thanksgiving 2012

All of the cousins….All of My sister and I’s kids! Can’t believe they are all smiling at the same time. Love these sweet kids.

Thanksgiving day we always go by Mills grave on the way to my parents and have prayer thanking God for our family and our blessings. One of our greatest blessings was Mills. I love seeing my children’s tender hearts during this time. So special.


Lots of fun times ahead with Christmas! It is truly the most wonderful time of the year!



Thanks for visiting my new blog! I am super excited to re enter the world of blogging and hope to be able to keep it updated of what is going on in our lives! I started a blog shortly after Mills passed away and it was really more of a place healing for me and sharing what God was teaching us through our heartbreak. Then, life got super busy and I didnt have the time to keep it updated. I decided to start a NEW blog and archive all those posts about Mills and this time capture our families journey and what God is teaching me, or rather what is causing me to fall flat on my face these days!:)

It has never been easy to put my heart and emotions out for others to see. I have come so far in that but still have a long way to go. What blesses me most is a vulnerable heart and spirit. That is where true healing begins. It doesn’t come natural for me, so I know when God is leading me to put myself out there like this, It is scary, but He always blesses me when I do. I promise to do my best to make this not another “perfect family” blog roll. Because believe me, we are far from perfect.  We are real believers that struggle everyday to balance all of life’s busy demands. God has shown our family so much grace and mercy and I want Him to get all the glory for what He is doing in our lives. Because no matter what, HE is Good and HE can be trusted.

Here is a little family update…..

Our sweet Tate started Kindergarten this year. He turned 6 years old in September and has the most precious, tender heart. He is doing so well in kindergarten, adores his teacher and loves his school. He is playing soccer and scored his first goal a few weeks ago! He loves, and I mean loves, tractors, machines, trucks, and lionel trains. He knows them all like the back of his hand. He studies about them in books and magazines, it is so cute. He is such a joy and his tender heart makes me melt.

Jon Walt turned 3 in March and is going to school a few days a week. He loves school and his friends. He is my “spirited” child and never gives us a dull moment for sure. He loves big and has such a compassionate heart. He challenges us with his energy and his love for potty words!:-) He is into superheros, but prefers Batman. He often time thinks he is Batman and flies off of furniture. He is our little comedian and always keeps us laughing.  His concern for others and his love and tenderness with babies and animals is the sweetest thing in the world.

 Here are a few recent pics…..

We had a fantastic family beach trip this summer. The boys are at the most fun ages

Tate playing soccer..

Jon Walt aka “Batman”

Carriage Ride on a recent trip to Memphis

This pretty much sums up their personalities

 Love my sweet family! Blessings!